The answer
You are not the only one struggling to do what is good. The more you want to cling to the Lord and be Christ-like; the more the devil will tempt you and try to prevent you from pursuing this path. St. Paul says, "For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do" (Rom 7:15). I see a lot of anger in your life against others and within yourself. You need to overcome this anger and pray about it. Read Ephesians 4:29-5:1 "Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers. And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God, whereby you are sealed unto the day of redemption..." and pray to the Holy Spirit to guide you and fill your heart with peace and humbleness.I am glad that when you do wrong you quickly realize it. This means that you are alert to where your spiritual life is heading. Keep on trying to control your emotions and do not despair.
Answered by His Eminence Metropolitan Youssef (opens in a new tab)