I need advice with relationships. I am 25 years of age and I have been extremely anxious for the past few weeks. I am a servant and serve alongside with a female servant for many years. It is only recently that I noticed her from how gracious and kind she is to others. I am very attracted to her inner beauty and feel she would make an honorable wife and mother.
I finished my Masters Program one year ago and I am currently applying for work. She also just graduated from college and is looking for work. I want to approach her to see if.she has the same feelings towards me. I fear she might reject me because next to her, I feel like a bad person. Her inner beauty makes me feel inwardly ugly. I also feel that she might reject me because I do not have a job or a car yet.
I pray about this a lot, almost fighting with God and asking Him to make it clear to me whether I should ask her or not. I ask Him to take away my feelings if they are not from Him. Last night, I was praying to God to let me know if she is the one or not. In the morning, I opened my Holy Bible to continue reading the Book of Acts, but instead my hand opened the Holy Bible suddenly to Proverbs, and my eyes fell on this verse: "
Her ways are ways of pleasantness, and all her paths are peace. She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her, And happy are all those who retain her" (
Proverbs 3:17-18). One thing I know for certain is that my feelings have not one grain of lust. I also feel that if I wait too long I will lose her to someone else, and this thought causes me great pain. I am very suspicious of any guy that talks to her, even my own friends! I know this is not healthy, but I do not know how to stop this.
